its funny how it has been exactly 3 months since my last post , i didn't even time it this way, it just happened. someone also left a very good comment on my guestbook , well part of me is happy for that in sense that someone except for the people who i send the link to do stumble upon this site and the blog.
i was thinking to make this blog for a long time but today the emotions just set in just right or just wrong or i am just sad or whatever , i just thought today would be good. i wasn't feeling anything to do hence this is what i am doing.
anyway, enough about people finding this blog. today we're talking about tiramisu ( and some other things )
tiramisu
so here is what happened , my roommate was going out to get something for himself. me being lazy as i am asked him to get me a pastry along with him. he came back with his cup noodles and a tiramisu. now this was my first time tasting tiramisu , and i believed since its hyped so much it must be good. a few bites in , yeah its alr , but then the taste of coffee came and so came along with it its bitterish taste. i thought he must have gotten a bad one but the store where he got it from was pretty good , talking from my earlier experience. so i thought it must be by mistake that this was spoilt. well , i ate it all anyway since it felt bad to throw away it in front of him. then i googled and it turns out that tiramisu is supposed to taste like that. google also said somethng about lady finger and i thought they put vegetables in this ? ( turns out lady finger was the name of a biscuit not the vegetable). well that came off as weird to me since i had asked him to get me a pastry. he then said that when he asked for pastry the shopkeeper said that they were out of pastries but would u like tiramisu ? and hence he brought it
so no , tiramisu wasn't a pastry and hence its taste made sense now that it wasn't supposed to taste like a pastry. but i still don't like it. i think i might never eat it voluntarily again but who knows what might change.
Walter Mitty
i am not much of a movie guy ( as evident from my letterboxd ) but i am sure trying to change it.
so recently as i was googling which movie to watch i stumbled upon this movie. now i had watched some edits of this on instagram and other places so it felt good , that i shoudl watch it and yeah i did. i am not much of a travelling fan. well that wouldn't be an accurate description. i think a more good thing would be i like places but not the logistics involved in getting there and especially crowds, which are common where i live regardless of it being a tourist destination or not. the movie started out pretty alright , i also recognized a character from the show "severance" , the beard did look funny on him.
in the drunken pilot helicopter scene , well before that in the bar scene where the drunk guy comes to him and talks , that really made me hate the guy , i hate people like that who look like they always wanna have a fight. its always 50/50 , well 90:10 with drunk people i guess. then later when he was gonna board the chopper i was wishing that he didn't as it was risky. i think i was mixing reality with fiction. whatever
and at that point i was like yeah this guy is insane. i was genuinely hoping he wouldn't do it and then he just did. i guess that is the whole point of the movie though. walter spends so much of his life imagining himself doing things instead of actually doing them, and now suddenly he is doing them. not because he became some completely different person overnight but because he kinda just had to.
i liked that part.
really resonated with the day dreaming thing but it was great for him that he travelled and overcame his fears and all that. i think it has been some while like 3-5 weeks since i watched it so i am forgetting some details. it is fun to think to be like him i guess. it was good.
rush - niki lauda
first of all i would like to make one thing clear - i resonate more with niki than hunt. not because of his disciplined routine ( or maybe because of it ) but also because he felt like a bit of a serious person to me that hunt. hunt did have fun , perhaps more than niki ever did. i don't know what i wanna say here tbh.
the movie made me feel like i should be more serious about my life and have better people around me. part of the reason i didnt like james hunt was also because of his careless nature. while it did him good and he was happy .... idk who i wanna defend anymore tbh. do i even need to defend someone ? its my blog i can write what i wish but i wanna explain it to you (the reader) in a non cringy way that niki lauda's appraoch of being serius , well forget that. his competence , yes his competenece was so good , his understanding of the car , not just as a driver but also as a mechanic was so good man. hype moments and aura some might say. hmm. i guess that is all i want to say in that terms
Maquia: When the Promised Flower Blooms
i put this movie on my to watch list last year , when wplace.live was all the hype and one of my known people drew it on the canvas. at that time i didn't think much of it, i was busy topping the leaderboard in my city.
i cried , and i cried a lot , probably for 2 hours atleast. luckily my roommate was fast asleep.
the day was already not so good from the start for me. having watched rush a few days ago , the effects still were and i was determined not to get distracted today. but then i realised i wasnt willing to do anything , like anything. i had blocked all my socials and deleted all my games. i was simply not feeling it. sure i could scroll youtube shorts but i somehow didn't. then by shere coincidence i just opened my MAL and checked my plan to watch movies. i was gonna watch something echhi i will be honest about that but then i stumbled upon this.
when the movie started , and for the first like 30 minutes i didn't see what was so good about this. i think the first moment came when the children started shaming ariel a bit about loving his mother. its fine i guess and i progressed. then came the fight between them and the bridge where ariel was crying. it did make me feel sad a bit for the first time in the movie , thinking about how i may have said some bad things to my mother as well , not meaning and much out of anger at that time but immediately regretted it. and then it went on , the tears wer unstoppable.
see i am someone who thinks an ordinary life is boring. ordinary life in the sense that you grow and grow and die. no one outside your friens and family remembers you. this movie kinda changed it , a normal life maybe good afterall. ariel was a soldier and had a normal life.
the dog burial didn't affect me much i will be honest. i think the real tears started from the time where ariel's wife gives birth and the child hold's maquia's fingers and maquia has flashbacks of ariel holding her finger.
next when maquia starts to leave and ariel shouts "don't leave mom". man at that time it was more a head pain than tears , not in a negative sense , but in like an overwelhming way.
then the scene when ariel's wife said about how kind and good her mom was. man the departing really hurt
then , the final scene , man the amount i cried man , ariel in his deathbed and maquia comes to visit her. it had be sobbing uncontrollably , probably the last time i had tears fall down was eating some spicy thing but this time it was definetly more that that. but i am not here to talk about the amount of tears and all that. i just want to admire the scene and story and i do not know of better words to use for it so i apologize for that.
i don't think i can continue wrinting this , partly because it still makes me sad and partly because i do not know what to write more here. i am not a movie reviewer , i can't and never will be able to do it better than the professionals. all i have to say is that the movie was so good man.
my top anime movie before this was Josee, the Tiger and the Fish. i didn't think something could make me cry more than it ( earlier it was your name ). this has clearly overtaken it. i should stop thinking about metrics man.
before the mentioned parts of the movie came i kept thinking about how much should i score this on MAL , what to write and what to do next. now i don't think i wanna do any of it. i will still write this though. i needed to talk about it. may love find all of us, in some way or other. hopefully someday. idk. last night i was thinking of my childhood and how good i was at academics and sports both and how i wanted to be that robot again. but watching this movie made me remember that i had one more thing at that time in life that made me so good , it was tons of friends. even getting a percentage of it in new friends is yet something i aspire to achieve. there is go again man , talking in metrics.
i do not know if i will get the type of friends i am looking for in this place , or where would i get them or even if i will get them again. i dont want to think about it much , not in public ofc but i hope, well hope is only thing i can do except for cope.
The tickle bugs are here!